
The Russian models at Jack’s parties were getting younger and younger.
Jack (not his real name) was a refugee. He had managed to escape to Prague from the wreckage of his American life and the many cousins who had lent him money over the years.
Jack’s parties were a good place to go to, if you were looking for oblivion.
Nikita had stretched out on the piano and was looking out of the window into the sultry night of a Prague summer that had arrived too early.
His blond hair was so fair, almost transparent. His pale blue eyes resembled ice-coated marbles. Nikita would have been at home in a Russian winter tale, next to vermillion birds with silvery feathers and ermine-clad snow queens.
Nikita and I were holding hands, without much conviction we were just holding on to the childhood we had never had.
From time to time, reality would intrude into Jack’s parties in a brutal way.
A portrait of the Czech prime minister was hanging on the wall overlooking Nikita and the piano. It stretched like a big yawn across the entire length of the living room. Jack had accompanied the prime minister on some of his travels.
Slumped in a chair on the other side of the room, Ben (not his real name) was nursing a piece of a creamy Bohemian cake.
He had returned from his exile to Canada and had launched the first talk-show ever shown on post-communist Czech TV. His mother had been a famous Czechoslovak actress of the 1930s. She had escaped after the war and had never been able to return.
‘Prazdne bity’, that’s what my mother used to repeat. Ben was talking to me through a layer of shattered dreams.
‘Prazdne bity’ means ‘empty flats’ and I imagined a beautiful woman elegantly dressed looking at Prague from the distance of her exile.
In my mind, she was so much like Libuse, Prague’s mythical founder.
Libuse had stood by the river Vltava one day and had had a vision of the glory of Prague.
But Ben’s mother had seen no splendour. Only empty rooms inhabited by disturbing memories populated by countless objects scattered across the floor by terrified hands with little time left.
Don’t let this memory follow you, my mouth recited as if an oracle was speaking through me. The time has come to forget.
I don’t know what made me say this with so much conviction.
Later on that evening, the reflection of my face in the window of a night tram didn’t look familiar.
Prague is the perfect place to go to, if you are looking for oblivion.
Photo: thanks to Suzanne Salvo and salvoatlarge.blogspot.com
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